It is hard to believe that 12 years ago I was in severe pain recovering from the labor and delivery of my first born child. She weighed in at 8 lbs on the nose, had long black hair, blue eyes, all red and wrinkly and fuzzy...just the cutest thing I'd ever seen.
If 36 hours of intense labor and an emergency c-section are any indication of what her adolescent/teen years will bring...Lord have mercy!
This birthday was a transition from girl into young lady as far as gifts. And a huge realization for me that my cute, wrinkly, fuzzy baby is growing up...FAST!
Her main gift was a cell phone, but Mommy's gift to her little girl this year was a hair dryer and accessories, shaving supplies (for when she's ready to try, with permission to shave to the knee), and some subtle make-up. She was excited about the hair dryer and make-up, but blushed at the shaving supplies.
She asked at the beginning of last school year if she could shave, the reply was a simple no, and the topic was never mentioned again. I'm really curious to see how long she waits before she asks me to show her how. The make-up was also given with the instructions of this is the real stuff, not fake stuff to play with, when you are ready, I will show you how to properly apply it. Hopefully, the gifts will motivate her to do something with herself other than let her hair dry in strings and hang in her face and to take care of her skin, because we all know we shouldn't sleep with make-up on our faces so she will get an extra face wash a day...unless she is like her mother and sleep with it on.
All in all, I think she had a good day...she is now watching Mary Poppins with her friend who is sleeping over tonight. No matter how old, no matter how much attitude, no matter the hell that will come through the teen years...she's still one of the three cutest things I've ever seen!
Monday, May 25, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
long time no blog...
Long time no nothing...except box after box after box since March something or other when I became "unemployed". Imagine the fun I've been having with that...throw in two days on the road sandwiched between uhaul trucks, and numerous internal battles, mix in a few weeks without Prozac, add MIL and Mr. W non-stop 6 days a week and you get Me...a train wreck waiting to happen or volcano ready to blow or countless other analogies.
I was on a roll with my creative, free-spirited side for a bit. Was being a key term, I haven't done a painting or drawing in weeks. The last one I did was in April. I haven't blogged in who know how long, no creative release there. I'm in a creative slump as the day to day grind sucks the life out of me. To put it all in perspective, I have no one but myself to blame for my current state of being.
Rewind to the day I became "unemployed", my actions during that time, set a plan I thought to be just talk into fast forward mode with a lot of help from outsiders, The plan became a reality very quickly. In fact, too quickly for my procrastinating self to do anything about it without crushing the delicate lives of the three people I love most, my kids. A character flaw, if you will, passed on from my mother. Sacrifice your own happiness for that of your kids...guess I should have taken away from her suffering that sometimes it isn't worth it and your kids will turn out to be good people anyway. At least I think we turned out to be good people....there are some who would say otherwise. I'm quite sure.
I've totally lost my train of thought on this...the only thing I can say is that I am left with some very difficult choices to make and a whole lot of praying, that the decisions I make are the right ones, to do. At this point, I'm putting this in God's hands and His will. That's all I have right now. I'm mentally spent.
I was on a roll with my creative, free-spirited side for a bit. Was being a key term, I haven't done a painting or drawing in weeks. The last one I did was in April. I haven't blogged in who know how long, no creative release there. I'm in a creative slump as the day to day grind sucks the life out of me. To put it all in perspective, I have no one but myself to blame for my current state of being.
Rewind to the day I became "unemployed", my actions during that time, set a plan I thought to be just talk into fast forward mode with a lot of help from outsiders, The plan became a reality very quickly. In fact, too quickly for my procrastinating self to do anything about it without crushing the delicate lives of the three people I love most, my kids. A character flaw, if you will, passed on from my mother. Sacrifice your own happiness for that of your kids...guess I should have taken away from her suffering that sometimes it isn't worth it and your kids will turn out to be good people anyway. At least I think we turned out to be good people....there are some who would say otherwise. I'm quite sure.
I've totally lost my train of thought on this...the only thing I can say is that I am left with some very difficult choices to make and a whole lot of praying, that the decisions I make are the right ones, to do. At this point, I'm putting this in God's hands and His will. That's all I have right now. I'm mentally spent.
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